I cringed at the doctor’s suggestion. A nerve conduction study. Right. Zap the nerve that has had me limping and losing sleep for months. Make it hurt even more. Good plan…but necessary so they can discover where the pinching originates. As the day approached, I prayed more consistently and constantly but my mind kept reminding me of the last time I had one and the tearful screams as that needle…oh, my.
“Be not far from me for trouble is near…” (Psalm 22:11) Cast all your care on Him for He cares for you. (1 Peter 5:7)
I kept repeating verses to offset my growing angst. Even pleaded with my biological chauffeur (my son), who has so patiently transported me to and fro over the past few months since I haven’t been able to drive, to come into room with me. There stood the dreaded torture, I mean diagnostic, instrument. Silent. Benign…until turned on and the leads adhered to my skin. The doctor came in with a sympathetic smile. “Technology has advanced. The needles and shocks are smaller. We will try to make this as easy on you as possible.” Oh, I wanted with all my heart to believe him.
God, help me in my time of need…buzzt, jerk, zap. Hey, not too bad. On we went from my toes to my hip. Each step of the way the doctor told me what to expect. And then, it was over. I survived.
How often do we worry unnecessarily? Why do we say we have faith and yet hop down treacherous, fictitious bunny trails? I’ve heard it said that 90% of what we worry about never comes to pass, or isn’t half as bad as we predicted. I’ve also read that there are 365 verses in the Bible that speak to fear and worry, one for each day of the year. For me that means God knows we are “wired” to worry—probably because our innate desire to be in control is constantly tested by an out of control world.
So, I’m not going to beat myself up when anxiousness and “what ifs” knock on my brain. I will faithfully respond with Scripture…again.
A friend on Facebook asked for prayer because she stated she wasn’t sure she could take it. Why do we think we need to do so? Perhaps we need to stop taking it and let it go, giving it to God to handle for us. Reach up with our hands, our lips quivering, and ask Daddy to help. After all, He loved us enough to die for us so He could send His Spirit to be with us always. Of course that means admitting our vulnerability and lack of having it all together.
But if we do, God will guide us through it. Just like the kind, concerned doctor did for me during my tests. Even if it is a bit painful.
Do we have the nerve to do that before we reach our last nerve?
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Wow! Wonderful post and reminder to leave things in God’s hands.
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Thanks. Lesson learned…once again.
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Reblogged this on MOVING THE ANCIENT BOUNDARIES and commented:
Each one of us needs to read and apply Julie’s words of faith in our lives. And to “faithfully respond with scripture.”
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Oh my goodness, you went to the heart of the issue with this, sweet friend. Over the past two months, I’ve repeated the scripture…”Be anxious for nothing…” then reminded God (as if He needed reminding) “I’m anxious Lord.” “He knows my frame and remembers I am but dust.” Thank you for the wisdom of words from our Father in Heaven tonight. I am praying they found the answer and solution to help you!
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